Life Will Change Again Soon

Time flies, May is already halfway, the last time I updated my website was in back March. I initially thought I would push myself to do more of what I want to do this year, but I still fell short of expectations. Procrastination seems to be in my genes, no matter how much I force myself, even if I persist for a week or a month, once I relax, I am back to my old ways.

It’s like how mornings have always been meant for sleeping, ever since I was a child. Even though I have been waking up early for work for many years, I still haven’t adapted. Struggling for decades without being able to change it. This proves that many habits or personality traits can’t be completely altered through training. What we call “change” is actually a kind of “finding”, finding the nature and buried “talent/genes” engraved in the deep recesses of the heart.

Another reason for slow renewal is that life is too monotonous, repeating the same things almost every day, and consuming a lot of energy （mentally and physically） to do so. How can I gather more material from life when everything feels so stagnant?

Because of the nature of my profession and work, I often need analyze, which essentially means identifying or guessing causal and effect relationships. But when I occasionally analyze myself, I find it incredibly dull and I would keep the lifestyle for a long period of time. Some of it is my own doing, and the others due to destiny. No one forcing me to live in this way, it is merely the helpless choice given my current circumstances.

In the near future, my life will undergo some changes. it will be the first time since I came to Hong Kong that I have made a risky, bold decision. Actually, this is something that happens frequently in others’ lives – it just happens to come much later for me.